Tuesday, November 15, 2011

In Another Time


  I was touched by an e-mail sent to me by a reader from Singapore.  He spoke of his dreams to travel the U.S. and closed with a statement that really grabbed a hold of me..

"I hope you find what you are searching for.."

 Sometimes, I wonder about that myself. I guess my dream location would be a place where the burden of guilt and regret didn't weigh so heavily on my soul and I am finally able to live in peace.  The only problem is that no matter where I go or how far I run, I already know that the one thing I can never truly escape is myself. Sometimes, it feels strange not having a past or a future.  The road behind me is a broken trail and so is the road ahead.  My only 401k plan is the hope that the next life will be a little more forgiving.  Maybe I will be an eagle with a giant wingspan, watching the sunset from high above the horizon as the cool ocean breeze caresses my feathers.  I really do hope that there is some sort of afterlife because somehow I have really managed to screw this one up.  I guess I will just have to keep searching, hoping to find whatever it is I am looking for in another place.  If I can't find it another place.. then maybe in another time.

5 comments:

  1. what you describe... "I guess my dream location would be a place where the burden of guilt and regret didn't weigh so heavily on my soul and I am finally able to live in peace." sounds...
    JUST LIKE HEAVEN...sorry i am a fan of the cure, lol but it is true! ;)

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  2. The peace to accept/forgive oneself is definitely one of the hardest things to achieve in life. It's as hard for a traveler as it is for a person who's stuck in the same place. I hope someday soon, you'll find your peace. Hope I do, too.

    There's this pretty good comic book called Local, written by Brian Wood, that tells the story of a nomad girl. It's quite interesting, if you ever get a chance to read it.

    Cheers!

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  3. Cool. I'll have to check that out.

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  4. I am IN LOVE with spoken word poetry. I'd like to share this one with you.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXb9N2cVUs4) Sarah Kay is one of my favorite spoken word poet. She has been an inspiration for many of my recent poems. "No matter that I have inhibitions to fill all my pockets, I KEEP TRYING."
    I pray that you gain the strength to keep trying, that you keep moving forward despite the broken road. No matter how impossible it may seem to you at the moment. An email friend from Russia once told me that "life is but a journey from one point to another, but it itself is amazing, with no regard of the start and the finish." I know this may seem insignificant, I'm not sure if it would make a difference. But whatever it was, I FORGIVE YOU and sincerely hope and pray that you would find it in you to forgive yourself as well. =)

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  5. Cool link, and thank you for your very kind words.

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