This topic stems from a conversation with my Pepperdine pals at SOS and is not at all my favorite subject. I asked for their general wisdom and in turn they asked for mine which is only fair. The only wisdom I could generate was to forget about my wisdom. First off, being that I am a hobo it is pretty evident that wisdom is not my forte. Second, people are always going to try and give you advice and it's okay to take from it what you can, but when it comes down to it always do you what you feel calling you deep down in your soul. Those people don't have all the pieces to the picture. So even when they are standing right next to you, they are not going to see what you see. In the end, noone can walk in your shoes except YOU. The source of this wisdom digs up some of the past of which I rarely choose to dwell on because it requires too much effort to sift through a sh!tload of pain just to uncover anything remotely noteworthy. A nomad was in love once.. yep it happened. I was struck and struck hard. So hard that it brought me to my knees. In fact, there is still some residual discomfort even writing about it in this blog. It was a rocky relationship because we were still young and ultimately I chose to listen to my friends and let go of the one person in this world that I have ever been able to truly connect with. This in turn spurred a whirlwind of high-octane drug and alcohol abuse that spiraled out of control, tipping the first domino into a cascading effect of misery and reckless self-destructive behavior that systematically ripped my entire life to shreds.. of which I have only myself to blame. It's not their fault for giving the advice, but mine for blindly accepting it. It was a decision based purely on emotion, without the benefit of intellect..and one of my lifelong regrets. About a decade has passed, and I have since found her to be irreplaceable. Although I have pretty much moved on, I have never been able to truly open my heart the same way ever again..and probably never will. A common phrase your friends will be armed with while attempting to steer you is that there are "plenty of fish in the sea..", but if the kind you are searching for is of a rare breed then there is no guarantee that you will find another like it..