Friday, January 6, 2012

Reboot

  When you suffer a major crash it's time to hit the reset button. I looked at some old photos that stirred up a little too much nostalgia and a wave depression hit that knocked the wind right out of my sails. So, I'm starting over with new eyes and a new way of thinking. Not to mention a clean slate in revenue as I have hit absolute ground zero in finances. Completely empty bank accounts, empty pockets.. empty wallet. All I've got left is a cell phone and a dream. My cell phone is dead. I'm starting to wonder about the dream. They say that once you hit rock bottom you have nowhere to go but up. However, I have proven that theory flawed on many occasions with my uncanny ability to dig the hole even deeper. I figure I've got about a solid year of this crap left in me before the final curtain call drops and this little story of mine fades to black. I don't think it even bothers me as much any more. I'm getting tired and this road is way too long. I just want to rest. To be honest, I never expected to make it this far. I really don't know what is keeping me going or why, all I know is that I have to keep moving. Plenty of time for rest in the grave. Besides, the sentiment slows me down and I've already lost way too much momentum over the Holidays. I've got to pick it back up because I've still got things to do, like this damned Bucket List that I am absolutely determined to fill. Hopefully, along the way I will be able to pick up the shattered pieces of my life and reassemble them into something remotely similar to my former being. So, my New Year's resolution is to gather whatever fight I have left in me and go down with guns blazing. I always promised that I would never pass silently into the night. I keep my promises, even the ones that I make to myself. So here's to 2012 and whatever new plights, roadblocks, twists and turns you've got waiting for me. Bring it. In the words of the great Tony Montana "I take all your f***** bullets!"

Time to go out with a bang.

13 comments:

  1. Giving up is easy.  Living is much more difficult.

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  2. Great quote. Worthy of a bumper sticker.

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  3. Nitro!1/07/2012

    There's a reason my pic is a dragster with flames ... life isn't for the weak.
    I heard a quote, just yesterday: "We are not put on this earth to see through one another. We are put on this earth to see one another through." ~ Gloria Vanderbuilt. 
    She quoted this in an interview; believing this is why we are here.

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  4. I know I definitely would not have made it this far without good people like you in my life Nitro! I don't know how I got so lucky to meet such wonderful people along this journey, but I am definitely appreciative. Thank you for being in my life. It gives me the will to fight another day.

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  5. Nitro!1/07/2012

    Thank YOU. It goes both ways.

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  6. Anonymous1/07/2012

    I'm about to get in my car in nc, and drive out to the left coast to capture a nowhere man. You can't give up when you have so many people who love you. Pay no attention to the gold civic trailing your @ss. We, I mean it is not following you.

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  7. Gabriel Sousa1/10/2012

    Chin up, mate! At least you're not being crushed by the boredom of certainty. Like you said, you've met wonderful people. Keep those eyes open and I'm sure you'll meet many more. I don't know you personally, but you've kind of inspired me to not be still, to keep walking and it's paying off. For that, my honest thanks. Cheers!

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  8. Thanks! I'm really happy to hear that, my friend. If anything I do can inspire something positive in someone's life that I think that is pretty doggone awesome. Carpe Diem.

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  9. I am intrigued.......and inspired. Press on my friend! I look forward to reading more!

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  10. Thanks for the comment. I'm just trying to do the best I can with what I've got. Just like anybody else.

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  11. Dragonfly1/21/2012

    So much gone wrong you might as well laugh. Glad I discovered your blog.  Go with guns blazing but never go down!

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  12. You're right, my dear. Sometimes we need to be able to laugh at our predicaments otherwise we give the situation way too much control, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and dive right back into this battle we call "life". It ain't over 'till it's over.

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