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Thursday, May 16, 2013

Lost in the Fog

I don't know. The answer I seem to have to just about everything these days. Lately, it feels like I'm suspended - trapped - in some sort of weird nether region where ambiguity looms as a dark shroud that lingers in perpetual twilight. When I try to make moves, I can't tell if I'm coming or going. Or whether I’m going too fast or moving too slow. Everything is blurry. There used to be a time when I would just flip a coin and let chance decide. Now, there isn't even a visible crossroad to hang me up on my decision. Everywhere leads to nowhere and somehow the pieces just aren't fitting together. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of things. And now I have to change focus, realign my vision, or do whatever it takes to try and get that back. I realize that if, for whatever reason, this should happen to be my last post then it has the potential to be a very rotten one, but right now it's all I've got. At the very least, I wanted to give a special thanks to everyone that tagged along and love to all that cared. It's been a hell of a ride.

8 comments:

  1. Nomadic Living and Travels5/16/2013

    I spent a couple of years in 'I don't know' land when I started my nomadic life...(and, I often return there, briefly)...it is a tough place to be, yet, it can be freeing as well if you can surrender to it, in a positive way, letting go of the feelings of being trapped. I kept on going, trying anything and everything that seemed to open up for me. I hope you can too...and then find some peace in whatever it is you choose at the moment, and that it gives you some clarity and some direction. Getting lost isn't necessarily negative. It is what it is...and let it take you where you're suppose to be...hope this isn't your last post...Take care.

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  2. Thank you for your very thought-provoking comment. I hope for all of those things as well.

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  3. While I havent been lost in the same sense that you are before, I have found that out of my darkest hours come a ray a light for me to follow. Please, dont let this be your last post. I am here.

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  4. Deirdre5/28/2013

    all who wander are not lost. remember that.

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  5. Thank you for being a very good friend (and double thanks for the wonderful gift).

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  6. Hi! I found you from reading the back posts from Jamie the Very Worst Missionary. Did you ever read the Bible? It was like I was left hanging in the middle of a great story (yours) and now I want to know the ending. How'd that work out for you?

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  7. Hi Again! I think I've read nearly all your posts here - beautiful. You've gone quiet. Are you ok?

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